FrUsTraTIon !!!!!

i duno what's up but i'm feeling very frustrated with life right now!

everything just feels so messed up! sometimes i feel like i'm burning in fire and there's no one to help me! i give support to my frens but what abt me? even sitting on this table now is makin me feel irritated because the edges are hurting my skin! i'm so hurt inside! i wanna make a change in my life but i dunno why tins jus get so tough in life! i just hate the way i look! i'm just so fat and looking like this is just lowering my self-esteem! my life is like just goin no where now! i dun even have a usefull partner to shake me up when i'm all dead inside gosh i reli duno what to do sometimes! ever since i went training in kl i jus lost the grip of doing my aerobics daily! atleast i was loosing weight then now i'm not i'm just outing on weight and feel very depressed and sad about myself! i have to get serious maybe most plp dun take me seriously cause of the way i look so fat and dirty n ugly i mean i lost my interest for nice clothes ! even if there are nice clothes i'm not able to fit them!! ok now this is serious i've gotta do sumtin to myself de!!

1. start my aerobics daily without fail!

2. eat less

3.change the way i think and feel abt life

4.get rid off all the unwanted and useless people in my life.

i reli wish i can fulfil all these stuff and find a better feeling and look on live , all these in order i can live a healthy and comfortable life. gosh , dear god pls give me the strength to fulfil these things!